Wednesday, June 27, 2012
It won't fit!
I still love the Fisherman's sweater pattern, and I am very sad to say that I will have to frog all of that knitting, because the sweater won't fit. I know how important gauge is, I read the whole darn "The Principles of Knitting" and "Knitting Rules!" barely two months ago, both of them emphasizing the need to get gauge. Yet I felt comfortable winging it. Now I covet a hank or 3 of Cascade Yarns Ecological Wool, because that would be a much safer yarn to try to wing it with, as it is more or less bulky, right? If only I did not have too much yarn in my stash already. Maybe if I knit size 10 it will fit the 4 year old? ( I know how to do the math. I just cannot get myself motivated to do it. Yet.)
About the books - I am not all that pious, I wish I were.
To be a transplant in all spheres of life, including your church, can cause some confusion. Thus far we have been blessed with nurturing congregations, gifted pastors, and new points of view that challenge those that we grew up with, only to the extent that they are from a different angle. It nevertheless requires some thought and study to bring my own thoughts and words in line with the words of the people around me, specifically those whom I trust. (For clarity, I should perhaps say that we are now members of the PCA)
I do not know exactly what I believed about prayer until now. I think by nature I am a bit cynical; I also believe very firmly that everything is in the hands of God. I did not grow up with specific prayer requests. The Lord's Prayer was the example. It never seemed necessary to be more specific. Am I making sense, here?
In the 90's, a couple of tragedies struck in short succession. My father and brother died, and my husband was diagnosed with cancer. (He has been in remission for more than 10 years now) I did not feel as if specific prayer was "effective" then, in any measurable way, apart from asking God to convince me that His mercy alone would be enough. Actually having long internal debates, trying to convince God that it might not be, and then what?! I know, it would still have been enough, but I was only 22 then. As He promised, nothing could separate me from his love.
However, I fear that I might have become a bit cynical in terms of praying for anything specific. This book, and I am only a few chapters into it, may answer some questions. I trust God to keep me safe, spiritually. I just do not know how much more I should ask, since that seems to be enough. So, in a nutshell, that is why I am reading "A Praying Life."
Once again, I am linking up with Ginny's yarn along.
(PS: Yesterday it was 107 (41.6) degrees in Austin. It is now after midnight and the temperature is 87 (30.5) degrees. Just sayin. It's not like I am trying to convince my whole family that this place is hotter than anything in South Africa. Really not. Who would get involved in a debate about the weather?)